Future Story

lonely

I don’t love him.

I told him that.

He pretended not to hear.

I was almost relieved.

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We have two children,

a house, a home.

Jobs, friends, hobbies,

but I feel so alone.

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It’s too easy to stay,

too damn hard to leave.

He deserves better than me,

and I deserve to be free.

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For eight years now,

I’ve been existing, not living.

Like many others,

just going through the motions.

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But is it so wrong,

to want to love

and to be loved?

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To want to hold,

and to be held,

for real?

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The family is nearly grown now,

and something has to change.

Do I go east, or do I fly west?

I have no life compass yet.

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I’m just here, waiting…

for the storm to begin.

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Maybe it will blow me in the right direction.

Maybe it will show me the way not to hurt people.

Maybe I will learn how to live happy again.

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To live, and not just exist,

is how I want to write my future story.

End

A Happy Ending…

is that possible, any more?

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Peace x

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